Now, any of you that have read my blog for any length of time should know that I am a self proclaimed hermit, usually air on the side of caution and remain nonchalant to the mysteries of dating, relationships and actually becoming emotionally drawn to anyone. Other than the odd and often regretted random hook up I tend to stay withdrawn in the mating area. 

So, it was with great anticipation that I stepped out today on my first date in more than 4 or so years and do you know what I found out……it isn’t actually that bad! The worst that happens is that you don’t click, which we didn’t, but I spent a lovely afternoon talking to someone, watching a film and generally actually living. The little eccentricities about someone’s person that often endear us to them were unfortunately absent, the little curling eyebrows, the French accent, sad but it didn’t grip me. But never the less, it’s given me optimism to carry on and move forward. 

I don’t even know what the fear was before. I always said “I can’t be bothered”. Could I really not be bothered or was this covering some deep seated issue that I didn’t want to be rejected….probably. I’ve never been rejected, the problem here is that this is only true because I haven’t actually dated either. 

The year of Love and Adventure seems to be continuing nicely. Lets see what else happens!