Well it seems that the cosmos is certainly conspiring against me…problem is I don’t know what. Financially something’s got to give. I was informed by a colleague today at ITV that the job I’d been persuaded into applying for went to the obvious candidate. I’m a little annoyed…it is quite fair enough for her to get the job but to persuade me to apply when it was obvious she’d get it, and to then ply me with interview questions is out of order. After I put my application in I heard diddly squat, not even a call for an interview….its only today that I find about it. So now the question is this….do I apply for the job that is now available, one career rung lower, but still a job? It’s a job, it’s a route in, but I did feel a little shit on that no regard what so ever was given to me…..if I’d simply been told that I didn’t have enough experience and it was left at that everything would be fine. It would have given the indication that someone else was in line for the job without actually saying it out loud. What with this and Michelle moving out, I really am in a slightly dire situation. I have to get a job asap, or boost my gardening clients, but I don’t want to do the latter because I am looking to move out of the gardening so its not fair to clients to start up and then disappear again so quickly….but, perhaps I need to be selfish here. 

On a change of mood, and rather at the wrong end of the year, I’m feeling slightly romantic. Before you all drop dead of shock I don’t have heart flutterings, I’m not lusting for a sole-mate, and I’m most definitely not feeling the need to buy roses, give chocolates, or sing at someone’s balcony….its just perhaps I’m moving towards a state where I could deal with a boyfriend?! Mr Yoyo called today to see if I could do him a favour – not that I could – but it just got me thinking about partners, and love and oh god…I must stop before I say something truly out of character!!